Just let it all out!

I understand that some of us are actually going through really tough times, even up till today, it has been 5 months but still the wounds have yet to heal. This is just a thread when you feel alone and need support, just type whatever you want here, and just so you know, everyone on this board are with you!

We will comfort you, we will give you infinity amount of *hugs*, we will blow you kisses and most importantly, we will remember Michael with you! =)

i've endured taunts and jeers and threats from haters and even my family telling me to shut up about michael. during the last semester in school, i couldn't focus in class, flunked my exam papers, had to retreat to the restroom all alone crying, retching near the toilet bowl. on the morning of hari raya puasa, alone and silently, i looked up to the mj poster in my wall and paid my solemn respects to him.

barely talked to no one for the first 3 months, and i felt kinda guilty for 'abandoning' him sometimes when he was still alive just to fit in with the current 'trends'. as a result i vowed to let michael stay alive in my heart and memory altogether. still feeling the gloom whenever the 25th and 26th day of the month approaches but i try to stay strong and keep those happy memories alive. everything else in pop culture now don't matter to me but him. i don't even mind being stranded in a remote island or a war-torn zone bringing only my playlist of michael jackson songs and videos to entertain myself. and i lull myself with his lovely ballads to sleep.

radyalovesmjj wrote:

i've endured taunts and jeers and threats from haters and even my family telling me to shut up about michael. during the last semester in school, i couldn't focus in class, flunked my exam papers, had to retreat to the restroom all alone crying, retching near the toilet bowl. on the morning of hari raya puasa, alone and silently, i looked up to the mj poster in my wall and paid my solemn respects to him.

barely talked to no one for the first 3 months, and i felt kinda guilty for 'abandoning' him sometimes when he was still alive just to fit in with the current 'trends'. as a result i vowed to let michael stay alive in my heart and memory altogether. still feeling the gloom whenever the 25th and 26th day of the month approaches but i try to stay strong and keep those happy memories alive. everything else in pop culture now don't matter to me but him. i don't even mind being stranded in a remote island or a war-torn zone bringing only my playlist of michael jackson songs and videos to entertain myself. and i lull myself with his lovely ballads to sleep.

Please dont be so hard on yourself? Michael wouldn't want to see you like this. Remember, Michael had always been strong, courageous and he never gave up on life. You shouldn't too! I know that it's tough, but it's times like this, where we will grow and learn from! Cheer up!

Yup. we should all live strong for Michael.. and we will do this together.. =)

sure, i did attempt to smile despite the gloominess. things started to improve by early october, due to the rising interest in This Is It. and i amuse myself with classic videos and interviews of his, as well as fan-made tributes to him around the world on youtube. the gloominess during the 25th and the 26th of the month is just a fleeting feeling of sorrow that i face every month which, as time passes, gets less and less painful.. may our unconditional love for him last til the end of time..

Although it has been 5 mths since Michael have left us. Somehow i feel that Michael is still with us. My biggest wish right now is hope that people out there will stop calling him Pedophile or any mean words which hurt him. Michael have died so please let him rest in peace..

radyalovesmjj wrote:

sure, i did attempt to smile despite the gloominess. things started to improve by early october, due to the rising interest in This Is It. and i amuse myself with classic videos and interviews of his, as well as fan-made tributes to him around the world on youtube. the gloominess during the 25th and the 26th of the month is just a fleeting feeling of sorrow that i face every month which, as time passes, gets less and less painful.. may our unconditional love for him last til the end of time..

im quite new to this fanpage, and it's really nice to see people who share about mike so much. but you know i think that for me, mike has become somewhat of an inspiration. okay this may sound weird but seriously. i really admire the way he handles all the rough patches in this life. okay, certain things he should never have done but he's human after all. but what i admire is how he's always able to pick himself up after all those particularly bad falls, just as all those ridiculous child molestation cases and he's innocent at that, but he's always able to become stronger after that. quoting him, he said he's a fighter. so cheer up yeah! he sure wun want to see you like that! (: so take care ya! (:

trinixdeangelov wrote:

spring.jill. wrote:

radyalovesmjj wrote:

sure, i did attempt to smile despite the gloominess. things started to improve by early october, due to the rising interest in This Is It. and i amuse myself with classic videos and interviews of his, as well as fan-made tributes to him around the world on youtube. the gloominess during the 25th and the 26th of the month is just a fleeting feeling of sorrow that i face every month which, as time passes, gets less and less painful.. may our unconditional love for him last til the end of time..

im quite new to this fanpage, and it's really nice to see people who share about mike so much. but you know i think that for me, mike has become somewhat of an inspiration. okay this may sound weird but seriously. i really admire the way he handles all the rough patches in this life. okay, certain things he should never have done but he's human after all. but what i admire is how he's always able to pick himself up after all those particularly bad falls, just as all those ridiculous child molestation cases and he's innocent at that, but he's always able to become stronger after that. quoting him, he said he's a fighter. so cheer up yeah! he sure wun want to see you like that! (: so take care ya! (:

Welcome Spring!!! & nope, nothing abt u is weird at all... it's those who don't understand tt are weird *hugs* Keep his love growing within!

hey yeah thanks ya! ((: yupp, i totally agree with you. quoting michael, 'it's for all love. L.O.V.E." (((:

yup..i totally agree with you jill. he's a lover, not a fighter.. we are going to grow and stay as strong as Michael! if Michael can go through all these for years, we can be as good too! yeah.. we are going to keep his love growing!!

Star wrote:

yup..i totally agree with you jill. he's a lover, not a fighter.. we are going to grow and stay as strong as Michael! if Michael can go through all these for years, we can be as good too! yeah.. we are going to keep his love growing!!

yepp! we sure will be able to do it! ((: i think that's why i like michael so much, because i think that besides entertaining us with all his amazing songs and dances, he really taught us alot. all these, and the songs he wrote, like heal the world, earth song and the likes. how many artiste actually bother to do so much? when i heard he contributed the entire profit of Dangerous world tour for charity, im totally impressed. (((: he totally rocks! ((:

No one can beat Michael!! =)

Star wrote:

No one can beat Michael!! =)

Yeah!!

Argh.. my mum said i should see a psychiatrist!! ah..

i was watching dangerous tour dvd just now and i just merely said that i'm going to replay the part when he jumped out cos i missed it and she said that!!

"something is wrong with you if you are still into Michael and you need to see a shrink.. " i can have a singer as my idol for 8 years, why cant i love michael as long or even longer? who's says there is a problem when i'm not stopping? Why should i stop in the first place.. this is... RIDICULOUS!
moreover, i'm considered a small fan among all the other fans in the world.. i only have a small collection of his stuff.. i've controlled and changed myself alot to make all of them feel better.. i think she's the one driving me crazy to ask me to stop.. Where's the logic??

She cant resist Michael too!! THIS IS UNFAIR!!

trinixdeangelov wrote:

Star wrote:

Argh.. my mum said i should see a psychiatrist!! ah..

i was watching dangerous tour dvd just now and i just merely said that i'm going to replay the part when he jumped out cos i missed it and she said that!!

"something is wrong with you if you are still into Michael and you need to see a shrink.. " i can have a singer as my idol for 8 years, why cant i love michael as long or even longer? who's says there is a problem when i'm not stopping? Why should i stop in the first place.. this is... RIDICULOUS!
moreover, i'm considered a small fan among all the other fans in the world.. i only have a small collection of his stuff.. i've controlled and changed myself alot to make all of them feel better.. i think she's the one driving me crazy to ask me to stop.. Where's the logic??

She cant resist Michael too!! THIS IS UNFAIR!!

Awww... I'm sorry ur mum said sth so insensitive towards u.... parents just dont' understand who we can have such huge attachments to ppl tt don't even know us... & usually what they say always ends up coming out all wrong... just let her know tt u've slowly moved on & are beginning to gather the pieces & she should respect ur trying ur best.... things don't happen overnight.

I know how it is 'cos ppl at work also think I'm crazy when I can say tt Elvis & Michael comes before my hubby... they jsut don't understand... they go "But those two are already dead & don't even know u!" But tt is besides the pt... the pt is that Elvis & Michael have been my security blanket for yrs & they are whom I know tt I can turn to in times of despair. I can have quarrels & get upset with my hubby but with Elvis & Michael, I don't get tt... I get comfort, peace & support & tt's what I need at times. It's not like I don't love or value my hubby but it's just 2 different & seperate issues. Sure I can find comfort, peace & support in my hubby as well, I'm not saying tt I don't... what I'm saying is tt in the times where I'm at a battle with even my loved ones, I know tt I have 2 other ppl whom I can turn to, instead of breaking down.

Ppl just don't understand & they just don't wanna try.... same as with Michael, now same as with us, his fans.... sigh

the irony is she asking me to send her Mike's songs!! ARGH.. i dun understand her.. i dunno why she keep saying that.. if i really need a shrink.. all fans of Michael would need.. lets all go together then.. i dun mind if she say it indirectly, or jokingly as a reminder.. but she sounded really serious about sending me to a doc.. like i am really insane or something..
i do not want to be like her, afraid to show admiration and love.. while she said i need a shrink, i was still thinking i haven done enough.. do you know how restrained i was when i was watching the dvd just now! and was because of what she said.. i should have watched alone and enjoy it myself..

Thanks trinix.. i feel that this is the only place i can vent out my frustration because everyone here have the same love for michael.. and you guys will understand how i feel..

lol.. ya.. thanks.. building up.. getting thicker now..

trinixdeangelov wrote:

Star wrote:

lol.. ya.. thanks.. building up.. getting thicker now..

Once in a while, sth will get right thru ur defence btu stay strong... lemme know if anything yeah... always an ear away

oki!! you are really like a big sister..

Star wrote:

trinixdeangelov wrote:

Star wrote:

lol.. ya.. thanks.. building up.. getting thicker now..

Once in a while, sth will get right thru ur defence btu stay strong... lemme know if anything yeah... always an ear away

oki!! you are really like a big sister..

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